Posted by: chinitangtillie on: December 10, 2008
Recently, in one of my graduate classes, we were asked to do a paper on which of the following we believe in:
“I work to live” versus “I live to work”
Ideally, I work to live. The only reason why I work is for me to be able to earn enough to send myself to school and feed my stomach. However, upon careful evaluation, I learned that working to earn is not the only reason why I am gainfully employed. I realized that more than to money, I work because of self-fulfillment and self-actualization. I have learned a lot coming from a university that has groomed me to become if not the best one of the best.
Through years of experience, I have learned a lot. I have learned a lot from my supervisors. I guess, I am one of the lucky ones who had supervisors that care so much for their subordinates. My supervisors have trained me well…my working ethics. This could be seen on my work output.
Normally, people would say that ones work output can be affected by other social factors such as your colleagues. I have to say that for some people this can be true. On my part, yes it does affect my work output but not because it is by choice but more of by chance.
Let me expound more on this. In an organization, division of labor is utilized. It can be taken that an organization is composed of parts and that these parts are connected in someways. If one of the parts is not performing well, then the other parts would be affected as well. Yes, this has happened to me for a lot of times. My productivity is affected because one of my colleagues is not efficient enough. And yet, I sometimes have to put up with her. I guess because I am a Filipino. I have imbibed a trait that could be considered as positive but in some cases it doesn’t help – “pakikisama”.
Recently, I joined a company. I am a person who is very choosy when it comes to befriending people. I don’t trust people easily.
And this time, I am right. You can’t trust the people that I am currently working with. I guess, I am just sad because I would want to have a solid relationship with my colleagues in my department. But I know that I can never trust them. Nevertheless, I would continue to do my work….and be successful someday!
Posted by: chinitangtillie on: September 30, 2008
Sometimes, you say things that get into my nerves. Normally, I would just shrug it off. But today, I can’t help but feel bad. I felt bad because you made me feel like I am such a spoiled brat. Someone who always takes so much of your time. And yet, when i come to think of it, i no longer send you text messages when I am at work. I only get to talk to you after office hours. Sometimes, you make me feel that you don’t really want to talk to me…that you don’t miss me. And i really hate that. Because it is making me realize that i am so into you…that i love you more than you love me!
Yet, you really have your way of making all those anger and hurt disappear. You have your way of making me feel that you love me more…you never fail to make my day special And I love you more for that!
I love you despite not knowing where this will lead us. But i do hope that wherever this will lead us…it will be best for both of us.
I love you and will always do!
Posted by: chinitangtillie on: September 29, 2008
I can feel the magic floating in the air
Beign with you gets me that way
I watch the sunlight dance across your face
And i’ve never been this swept away
All my thoughts just seem to settle on the breeze
When i’m lying wrapped up in your arms
The whole world just fades away
The only thing I hear
Is the beating of your heart
CHORUS:
Cause I can feel you breathe
It’s washing over me
And suddenly i’m melting into you
There’s nothing left to prove
Baby, all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
Slow and steady rush
Baby, isn’t that the way that love’s suppose to be
I can feel you breathe
In a way I know my heart is waking up
As all the walls come tumbling down
Closer than i’ve ever felt before
And I know, and you know
There’s no need for words right now
CHORUS:
I can feel the magic floating in the air
Being with you gets me that way…
Posted by: chinitangtillie on: September 29, 2008
In weeks time, you will be leaving. It will be quite sometime before I’ll see you again, feel those arms tightly wrapped around me and get those sweet little kisses from you. I know that I’ll miss those moments that I’ve had with you.
I’ll miss our daily talks and those virtual kisses that I get before I go to bed. But most of all, I would miss you whispering those words that I really love to hear.
Yes, I will miss your “I love yous.” I know that I sometimes often fail to tell you how much I love you. But I really do. I LOVE YOU!
Posted by: chinitangtillie on: August 30, 2008
I start work at nine in the morning. I get home at around eight. Sometimes, I have to do overtime. And when i do, i get home at around 11 in the evening. Upon arriving home, I have dinner and cook our viand for tomorrow’s lunch. I no longer have the luxury of watching news reports.
Last Tuesday, a C130 crashed killing nine of its crew. I didn’t know that one of those who died is Captain Adrian de Dios. I don’t know him personally. But i know his brother Renan de Dios who is currently a first class cadet at the Philippine Military Academy. I didn’t know that his brother died in the crash until i opened his friendster account.
I feel sad not only for dee (that’s my pet name for him) but for his family specially for his pamangkins who lost their dad at an early age. I would love to give him a hug to comfort him since dee has always been nice to me. His mistah and I might not have ended up together but he still remained to be a dear friend to me.
Dee, you might not be able to read this…but i just want you to know that i’m just here if you need me. My condolences to you and your family. Be strong. Always remember that in everything GOD does, he does it well. There’s a reason for everything. Maybe at this time, you don’t see any reason why this has to happen. But in time, you will.
I’ll see you soon!
