It is one o’clock in the morning.  Yet, I am still awake.  There are just so many thoughts running around my head.  Yes, you keep on running through my head.  You are messing up my thoughts.  I can’t go to sleep because there are just so many things that I wanted to tell you….to ask you.  But since my thoughts are messed up, I don’t even know where to start.

When I first met you, all i wanted is for you to be my friend.  But it irks me so much whenever you tell people that I am not your type and you’ll never fall for me.  That biatch in me wanted to prove you wrong…that I could make you like me.  And now, I regret everything.  I shouldn’t have done that because it placed me in a situation that I never wanted.  Now, I don’t even know how to get out of it or if i really want out.

I am so scared of what I got into. Yes, scared because I am falling for you.  Remember the song of Toni Gonzaga ….”how can something so wrong feels so right all along, catch me I’m falling for you!’  ….well, that’s my song.  I am trying to suppress, to stop falling for you because I am not sure if you’ll be there to catch me.

I want you.  But I don’t want to get hurt again.  I don’t want to fall in love with you just to find out that you’ll never love me back in return.