Chinitang Tillie's Journey of Life!!!

….work ethics!!

chinitangtillie — Wed, 10 Dec 2008 20:23:36 +0000

Recently, in one of my graduate classes, we were asked to do a paper on which of the following we believe in:

“I work to live” versus “I live to work”

Ideally, I work to live. The only reason why I work is for me to be able to earn enough to send myself to school and feed my stomach. However, upon careful evaluation, I learned that working to earn is not the only reason why I am gainfully employed. I realized that more than to money, I work because of self-fulfillment and self-actualization. I have learned a lot coming from a university that has groomed me to become if not the best one of the best.

Through years of experience, I have learned a lot. I have learned a lot from my supervisors. I guess, I am one of the lucky ones who had supervisors that care so much for their subordinates. My supervisors have trained me well…my working ethics. This could be seen on my work output.

Normally, people would say that ones work output can be affected by other social factors such as your colleagues. I have to say that for some people this can be true. On my part, yes it does affect my work output but not because it is by choice but more of by chance.

Let me expound more on this. In an organization, division of labor is utilized. It can be taken that an organization is composed of parts and that these parts are connected in someways. If one of the parts is not performing well, then the other parts would be affected as well. Yes, this has happened to me for a lot of times. My productivity is affected because one of my colleagues is not efficient enough. And yet, I sometimes have to put up with her. I guess because I am a Filipino. I have imbibed a trait that could be considered as positive but in some cases it doesn’t help – “pakikisama”.

Recently, I joined a company. I am a person who is very choosy when it comes to befriending people. I don’t trust people easily.

And this time, I am right. You can’t trust the people that I am currently working with. I guess, I am just sad because I would want to have a solid relationship with my colleagues in my department. But I know that I can never trust them. Nevertheless, I would continue to do my work….and be successful someday!

A Brat

chinitangtillie — Tue, 30 Sep 2008 14:49:06 +0000

Sometimes, you say things that get into my nerves. Normally, I would just shrug it off. But today, I can’t help but feel bad. I felt bad because you made me feel like I am such a spoiled brat. Someone who always takes so much of your time. And yet, when i come to think of it, i no longer send you text messages when I am at work. I only get to talk to you after office hours. Sometimes, you make me feel that you don’t really want to talk to me…that you don’t miss me. And i really hate that. Because it is making me realize that i am so into you…that i love you more than you love me!

Yet, you really have your way of making all those anger and hurt disappear. You have your way of making me feel that you love me more…you never fail to make my day special And I love you more for that!

I love you despite not knowing where this will lead us. But i do hope that wherever this will lead us…it will be best for both of us.

I love you and will always do!

A song for you!!

chinitangtillie — Mon, 29 Sep 2008 16:30:28 +0000

I can feel the magic floating in the air
Beign with you gets me that way
I watch the sunlight dance across your face
And i’ve never been this swept away
All my thoughts just seem to settle on the breeze
When i’m lying wrapped up in your arms
The whole world just fades away
The only thing I hear
Is the beating of your heart

CHORUS:
Cause I can feel you breathe
It’s washing over me
And suddenly i’m melting into you
There’s nothing left to prove
Baby, all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
Slow and steady rush
Baby, isn’t that the way that love’s suppose to be
I can feel you breathe

In a way I know my heart is waking up
As all the walls come tumbling down
Closer than i’ve ever felt before
And I know, and you know
There’s no need for words right now

CHORUS:

I can feel the magic floating in the air
Being with you gets me that way…

A SIMPLE MESSAGE FOR HIM

chinitangtillie — Mon, 29 Sep 2008 16:20:40 +0000

In weeks time, you will be leaving. It will be quite sometime before I’ll see you again, feel those arms tightly wrapped around me and get those sweet little kisses from you. I know that I’ll miss those moments that I’ve had with you.

I’ll miss our daily talks and those virtual kisses that I get before I go to bed. But most of all, I would miss you whispering those words that I really love to hear.

Yes, I will miss your “I love yous.” I know that I sometimes often fail to tell you how much I love you. But I really do. I LOVE YOU!

…my condolences

chinitangtillie — Sat, 30 Aug 2008 16:11:24 +0000

I start work at nine in the morning. I get home at around eight. Sometimes, I have to do overtime. And when i do, i get home at around 11 in the evening. Upon arriving home, I have dinner and cook our viand for tomorrow’s lunch. I no longer have the luxury of watching news reports.

Last Tuesday, a C130 crashed killing nine of its crew. I didn’t know that one of those who died is Captain Adrian de Dios. I don’t know him personally. But i know his brother Renan de Dios who is currently a first class cadet at the Philippine Military Academy. I didn’t know that his brother died in the crash until i opened his friendster account.

I feel sad not only for dee (that’s my pet name for him) but for his family specially for his pamangkins who lost their dad at an early age. I would love to give him a hug to comfort him since dee has always been nice to me. His mistah and I might not have ended up together but he still remained to be a dear friend to me.

Dee, you might not be able to read this…but i just want you to know that i’m just here if you need me. My condolences to you and your family. Be strong. Always remember that in everything GOD does, he does it well. There’s a reason for everything. Maybe at this time, you don’t see any reason why this has to happen. But in time, you will.

I’ll see you soon!

knowing one’s priority

chinitangtillie — Wed, 20 Aug 2008 15:47:37 +0000

Whenever i go back home (that’s in mindanao), I would often find myself bombarded with question about my status; whether i am still single attached or unattached. I guess, because at the age of 27 everyone from my clan down to my friends expects me to be at least attached with plans of getting married in the near or should i say nearest future (whatever that means!).

7 months ago, i could have answered them that i have plans of actually getting hitched on 2010 with of course with my then boyfriend. But it turned out that there will be no wedding bells in the next two years or so.

In the course of soul searching for the past months that I’ve been single unattached and available in the market, it has dawned on me that i am not yet ready to get married. I am not yet prepared to face the responsibilities, the demands and the expectations that comes with married life. I have to admit that at my age, i am still immature. Having my own family would be a disaster. My husband and kids will definitely not be happy having me for their wife and mother. I am not even good at handling boyfriend-girlfriend relationship.

At this time, I just want to focus on my career. Work my way up through the ladder and be successful in my chosen career. Getting hitched isn’t part of my priority now. It is actually the least of my priority.

Three years from now, I will be turning 30. Another year and i’ll be out of the calendar. Society would consider me as a spinster. But who cares? I really don’t care.

…on being jobless

chinitangtillie — Wed, 06 Aug 2008 09:58:42 +0000

I was surprisingly jobless for more than a month. Had to go through a lot of interviews and had to decline offers due to salary offered being too low or the benefits are not that good enough for me or they have six days working week (can’t sacrifice my studies for work definitely!).

Maybe due to boredom, there was one offer that I accepted immediately. But because I decided without thinking, I only stayed for 2 days. That was actually the shortest stint i had with a company aside from SVI of course which i stayed for only 5 months.

Being jobless for a month may not be that bad…specially for someone who has been working for almost seven years already. I needed that one month for vacation. But as days go by, you would feel so useless and you’ll really get bored. I guess, it is because I am not used to just staying in the house doing nothing but eat, sleep and watch tv.

From what had happened to me, I learned a lot of lessons.

Lesson 1. If you kiss someone’s ass, no matter how incompetent you are with your job, you’ll definitely stay.

I guess, it is really true that those who deserves to be commended for doing a good job and promoted to a higher position are those that actually never get it. Maybe because they were too busy doing tasks that they no longer have the luxury of time to suck up with their senior executives as compared to the “clods” of the team.

Lesson 2. Officers of a company may not be aware that some of their senior executives are actually clods.

Why? Because when they are kissed on the ass all they could think about is having the best orgasm that they would ever had. Kiss and suck….that’s it. They suck. As such, their company also sucks. Besides incompetent people finds it really hard to know they are incompetent. Again, maybe it is indeed true that someone who thinks that he is genius at work is actually an idiot.

Lesson 3. When looking for a job, don’t accept offers just because you needed to get a job.

At my age, it is only now that i realize that you really have to look at the company that you’ll be working with. A rolling stone gathers no moss. Yes, if you intend to become successful, you need to ensure that the company will be able to provide you the career growth that you wanted. Stability is they keyword. As the company grows…you grow with them.

Lesson 4. Never lose hope.

Why? There’s always tomorrow.

…random thoughts at one in the morning

chinitangtillie — Tue, 15 Jul 2008 17:30:22 +0000

It is one o’clock in the morning. Yet, I am still awake. There are just so many thoughts running around my head. Yes, you keep on running through my head. You are messing up my thoughts. I can’t go to sleep because there are just so many things that I wanted to tell you….to ask you. But since my thoughts are messed up, I don’t even know where to start.

When I first met you, all i wanted is for you to be my friend. But it irks me so much whenever you tell people that I am not your type and you’ll never fall for me. That biatch in me wanted to prove you wrong…that I could make you like me. And now, I regret everything. I shouldn’t have done that because it placed me in a situation that I never wanted. Now, I don’t even know how to get out of it or if i really want out.

I am so scared of what I got into. Yes, scared because I am falling for you. Remember the song of Toni Gonzaga ….”how can something so wrong feels so right all along, catch me I’m falling for you!’ ….well, that’s my song. I am trying to suppress, to stop falling for you because I am not sure if you’ll be there to catch me.

I want you. But I don’t want to get hurt again. I don’t want to fall in love with you just to find out that you’ll never love me back in return.

….thank you for making me smile!

chinitangtillie — Tue, 15 Jul 2008 13:54:22 +0000

You were never a part of my plan. I didn’t see you coming into the picture. All I wanted was to have a quiet life after surviving a storm that had almost left me dead. Now, all i can see and feel is you trying to get through the barriers I have carefully placed to protect me from being hurt again. Now I am scared because those barriers weren’t thick enough….you are almost there.

I don’t want you. I don’t want you to mess up my life. But no matter how i try to stop you…it seems that i just can’t. I want to shut you out of my life…but you are just so stubborn, you just have your way of letting yourself in.

Now I have lost. No matter how i try to suppress it…i just can’t help but fall for you.

You are special and will always be. Thank you for making me smile…..

stupid monster…soon to die!

chinitangtillie — Sun, 13 Jul 2008 13:34:56 +0000

F.D.B. is one hell of a wise guy. Either that or GVG is just plain stupid to hire a lawyer who claims to be a graduate of a law school in the Philippines considered to be the second best but doesn’t know how to count. I am really wondering how he managed to pass the bar exams or did he really pass it and didn’t buy it from RECTO. Or maybe because due to old age, he could no longer remember how to count. Hmmm…i hope he still remembers his ABCs else the big joke would be on all those people who believed him and his words. Do I sound so bitter?

Yeah…bitter is the right word. There are no other words to describe me at the moment while randomly writing this article…I AM SO BITTER! Who wouldn’t be? Let’s all stop being so nice and naive. When someone does you wrong…it takes time to forgive and move on. I am not GOD who totally understand his creatures…I am just one of his creatures who tries to understand all those monsters pretending and looking much like a man that HE created.

Oh well, life is indeed like that. Sometimes you meet one stupid monster who would make your life hell. but someday that monster, just like in the movies, will die. Not because of old age…but die in shame for his stupidity. And when that day comes, no one would see me laughing my head off…i would just be in one corner…looking at how one monster realize that he is after all vulnerable.